Monumental Purple 40" x 40" , acrylic & mixed media on canvas, Andrew Portwood copyright 2016 |
But is it an indulgence? No....it is like breathing- it is my identity....It just doesn't fit in with everyone else and their agenda or schedule.... which brings up the next subject; loneliness. So painting is an indulgence (or obsession) that brings me internal happiness and gratification, yet keeps me isolated and somewhat lonely and poor. But when I'm ahead of the game and have sold some paintings... and my bills are payed and I feel good about my work and direction...It's euphoric and completely makes sense. I am feeling blessed today and living in the present.
Note to Self : Stop thinking about it. Believe in yourself, work and go with the flow.
The Arena 40" x 40" , acrylic & mixed media on canvas, Andrew Portwood copyright 2016 |